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02 September 2008 @ 03:25 pm
 
Okay, I can't believe I have been at Borders for the past 6.5 hours! That's just insane. And I have actually been doing schoolwork for most of it, can you believe that? It's been a very productive day.

I'm starting to get a little worried though about whether I am going to be able to find a good job in Tallahassee in my field when I graduate. I mean I am going to do an internship and hopefully that will lead to a permanent job, but you can't guarantee that. This is all assuming I complete this program. If I continue to take two classes a semester, after this semester it should take me two more years to finish..sigh. I'm still going to continue to apply for jobs at Fsu and if I get anymore job offers I will seriously consider taking one of them, even if the pay is a little low at first. I can always work my way up once I'm in, and once I'm in I can either continue in this program or drop out depending on what I want to do. Either way I will know I have a job even while I may search for better ones if I finish the program.

I really don't want to leave Tallahasse so I'm seriously limiting myself job wise, but I know that God has a plan for me and I know He can open doors where there are none if He wants me to stay here. Hopefully He does because if I have to leave it will be kicking and screaming! Or else I will refuse to leave and settle for a crappy job working in the mall. I just don't do good moving to new places on my own where I don't know anyone. If I had a spouse or something and we had to leave for whatever reasons I could do it. I just need extra support with me. That's just the way I am. I cannot and will not relocate alone because I will have a mental breakdown, seriously. I know myself. That's just something I have to deal with and am limited by. Hmm... mental breakdown in a new place with a great job, or mental health and happiness in a familiar place with friends and family with a lower paying not so great job... yeah, for me it's the latter although others would think I'm crazy. Oh well. Each person has to do what they have to do according to what they can handle. Out of curiosity, part of me is still looking up jobs in other places in Florida as well.

I have been at Borders way too long and think I'm going to head home, get something to eat, and then continue the schoolwork. There just is no end to it and if you don't continue to move forward with it you can seriously fall behind and then you are really in trouble.
 
 
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lizzbethelizzbethe on September 2nd, 2008 09:50 pm (UTC)
Oh, I remember I had senioritis really bad during my junior and senior year of my undergrad and they warned us it would happen and yet told us not to screw it up at the end because colleges will purposely look at your last semester grades when considering to admit you, or if they have already admitted you could take back their offer if your grades fell significantly during that last semester. I think that is the only reason that I forced myself to study and do well the last semester. Sometimes fear works..lol.